Dwell – Day 12
What an experience it was welcoming the Lord into my heart. The weight on my heart lifted and filled with the peace of His love and mercy was like nothing I have ever felt before.
Before I came to be filled with the Holy Spirit, I was a lost soul carrying so much baggage that I never realized how heavy it actually was. I had so much hurt, anger, and self-deprecation, and I thought I could handle it all. There was a hole in my heart and I knew that, but by avoiding it, I thought I could find the cure for all of what needed to be fixed. On my own, I attempted to heal it. I knew that help was there for me, if I would just surrender. I would not do that because I had everything under control myself. I went to church on the special holidays to improve my well-being and to fulfill my obligation when I was out of town with my family, understanding the importance and also wanting to appear good in front of my parents.
I had seen on social media about a Women’s Night of Worship at Crosspoint Church and thought, “Why not? What else do I have to do?” I went, and ladies, let me tell you it was the greatest ‘why not’ I have ever experienced.
I sat in the back by myself because I knew no one and no one knew me. I listened to the words, but they didn’t really resonate because my heart was not open to receive them. It was getting toward the end, and it was time to pray. I put my head down because that is what you are supposed to do and I listened to the prayer and in that prayer; I had the most beautiful white light come across me while my eyes were closed. I felt the weight of the world being lifted off my shoulders. It was something that I had never felt before. I knew He was with me. At that moment, I knew my heart had opened, and I was ready to be a follower of Christ. I was ready to live the life that He had chosen for me. I was whole again and knew that peace was going to be with me in my struggles because I knew that then and in the future, whatever came my way, I would not have to be alone. As long as I gave my worries, fears, and any other struggles I was having to the Lord, I knew there would be peace in all the situations to come.
Peace can be hard to find. It’s hard to grasp, but when you know that all of your worries and fears are being handled by the one true King, you easily find the peace in your life and in your heart that you have been looking for.
Because of Jesus, I have peace. I know that whatever hardships are put in my path, I will make it through because I have been given the peace of knowing that the Lord is there holding me and guiding me through what is happening.
Psalms 29:11
The Lord gives strength to his people; the Lord blesses his people with peace.